To be or not to be !

what is it about writitng?
what is it that makes me stop in my tracks whenever I think of writing something.
Something that is me, that is my own, that is my own craziness, myself.
As a child,I never thought twice before writing whatever came to my mind. Years later when i read my diary entries, they
never failed to bring a smile to my face. Then what has changed now? why is it that every time, i think about writing, it is only a thought
and never put on paper. hmmm, is it that I don't have any experience to write about? I hardly think so. Every day in the last seven to eight years has brought something with it.
Be it a simple sun rise, a sun set , a tear, a smile, a fight, a rendezvous, anything and everything. I think if I start writing now, I will be able to finish writing about all the experiences in a year or two. :)
Most of the times, we all know the answer behind the questions we ask. I know to mine as well. Years of education - school, college and university has made me aware, in fact a little too aware of my language. The technical part of it, to be more specific. I am a person with a literature background, I don't want to use rules when I am writing something which is very close to my heart. Yet, what makes me not write these days is this reason alone.I don't want to dissect nor let anyone else get the perverse pleasure of dissecting my writing.
Ahem, a silly reason? At times I think so too, yet I know the moment I write something, I will be the first person to trash it. Only when I get over this, will I be able to relive the magical and not-so-magical moments of my life.